choked!

Never in my life have i used such slow internet as i am using now! it takes forever to open a webpage. aur Twitter to bhul hi jao. and for someone whose life's purpose is to tweet, this is torture of the highest degree! Twitter, for me, is the place where my feelings and emotions of the moment find expression. and to be cut-off from such a place is nothing less than being choked. this may sound a little exaggerated but i do feel choked; like i have to swallow my emotions back!
the internet speed is not getting better anytime soon. and until i leave for hyderabad and get a better net speed, i will have to lead this choked life.or maybe i will have to look for an alternate way of expression. maybe i will have to blog and blog. and see i have broken my exile from blogger.com with this post! so hello fellow bloggers, i am announcing my return to blogging!! nice to be back!

fly by quickly

the first two months of the last semester of college have gone just like that, without my even realizing it. two months remain. and i am wishing they would pass just as soon. unnoticed.
instead of wishing for time to stall or time to move at a slow pace, i am wishing it to run as fast as can be. i do not wish for an extra day here. i wish for the least number of days to stay.
i have had a great time here. i have made friends and had all the fun i could. i have done things i never thought i would. i have had my share of joys. and sorrows too. i have cried but i have laughed more. i have had the time of my life. but right now i seem to have had enough of this place. i am getting sick of it. i no longer want to stay. i want to run somewhere far away.
some people i will truly miss. but most i won't even care. some places i will miss going to. but there will always be new places to go. i will miss staying up all night, sleeping all day. but i won't really mind.
when the time comes for me to leave for real, i might get a little sentimental and shed a tear or two. but that's all i will do. i will indulge in no drama. i will leave as quietly as i came.
i am praying for these two months to pass by quickly and for me to bid this place goodbye!

when you are broke!

what not to do this month:

1. buying clothes/anything
2. eating out
3. going out


(p.s this is what happens when you go broke two straight months in a row!
God be with me!)

what lies ahead

2011
i am already apprehensive about what lies ahead.
placements. job. work.
life after college.
going to work everyday (if at all i get a call letter from "Headstrong"!! ).
moving away from friends.
adjusting to a new place and new people.
trying to fit myself.
and what not!

just hope this year turns out fine. i am not even asking for "good" or "great"! i can deal with "fine". fingers crossed!

it's all a game

some things work out.
some things don't.
some stories end
before they even start.

we love some.
we hate too.
we get hurt.
we smile more.

fate deals it's hand.
some lose. some win.
who do we blame?
and who do we praise?

it's all a game.
it's me against the world.
it's my battle.
and it's for me to fight. 

Q

questions brimming over
overflowing from the mind
too many i can't lay my hands on them
and too fast they slip away
they lie scattered on the ground
questions not to be raised
unasked they rot away
eating me away along the way

picked a question up from the ruins
the one that would answer all
an answer is all i seek
an answer i may never get
because it's a question i may never ask.

the worst feeling

you know what's the worst kind of feeling? it's when a friend is down n out, feeling confused and sad and she needs a little help.. but you know you are incapable of giving her the much-needed help. when you are just as helpless as she is herself. when you can't even give her a hug and tell her she's gonna be just fine. when she's there far away all alone and you can't even lend her a shoulder to lean on. it's the worst kind of feeling when your friend is sad and you can't make her smile.