what lies ahead

2011
i am already apprehensive about what lies ahead.
placements. job. work.
life after college.
going to work everyday (if at all i get a call letter from "Headstrong"!! ).
moving away from friends.
adjusting to a new place and new people.
trying to fit myself.
and what not!

just hope this year turns out fine. i am not even asking for "good" or "great"! i can deal with "fine". fingers crossed!

it's all a game

some things work out.
some things don't.
some stories end
before they even start.

we love some.
we hate too.
we get hurt.
we smile more.

fate deals it's hand.
some lose. some win.
who do we blame?
and who do we praise?

it's all a game.
it's me against the world.
it's my battle.
and it's for me to fight. 

Q

questions brimming over
overflowing from the mind
too many i can't lay my hands on them
and too fast they slip away
they lie scattered on the ground
questions not to be raised
unasked they rot away
eating me away along the way

picked a question up from the ruins
the one that would answer all
an answer is all i seek
an answer i may never get
because it's a question i may never ask.

the worst feeling

you know what's the worst kind of feeling? it's when a friend is down n out, feeling confused and sad and she needs a little help.. but you know you are incapable of giving her the much-needed help. when you are just as helpless as she is herself. when you can't even give her a hug and tell her she's gonna be just fine. when she's there far away all alone and you can't even lend her a shoulder to lean on. it's the worst kind of feeling when your friend is sad and you can't make her smile.

bored to death

boredom. utter crippling boredom holding me tight in its grip. boredom hanging like a dark heavy cloud. simply put: i am bored. totally. completely. wholly. royally.
my one companion(read:sleep) has left me alone today; all alone to fight against the ghost of boredom. i am on my own. and nothing seems to grab my attention. nothing seems to interest me. i sit here on my chair idle like an antique piece on a mantel. i am in a state of torpor. inactivity is the name of the game. i do nothing. all i do is maybe get bored and then get a little more bored of getting bored. this is the state i am in. i m stuck. stuck in the web of boredom. and i see no escape. i see no light at the end of the tunnel. i am bored to death!

Hues and Shades

a song rings in my mind
the words to it i can't quite recall
yet the tune is clear and sweet
the voice so unmistakably yours
the music plays on
and i hear them all in my mind

i once wrote the lyrics down
on the desk where i used to sit
and if i go back
to that class of mine
i may find the writings
faded but still holding on

my phone blared that song
for months on end
till the day i erased it clean
now i find no trace of it
except in my mind
where it lingers still

you are like that song to me
familiar once but now a distant memory
but the music takes me back to yesterday
and to memories of a time gone by
making me wish to listen to that song again
and remember a person i used to know

let me be

i do not demand
i do not expect
and i have no complains to make

i am the way i am
flawed but true
take me only if u can

love me or hate me
it's a call you make
and it's not for me to beg

come close
only if u feel the closeness
it's not an obligation

don't hand me roses
because you have to
but only if you want to

don't pity me
and do me things
i don't need your favor

don't pretend that you like me
and try to stab me at the back
i know better than to believe in you

don't try to make me special
when i am not to you
i need no one to feel that way

don't give me things
and think you're kind
i never asked for them

don't try to understand me
i am a puzzle
and you are not the one to solve

i ask nothing of you
i want not a thing from you
i wish nothing of you

you have your life;i have mine too
you live your life; and i live mine
you be as you are; let me be as i am